If you are
going through a time where you are not sure what is going on in your Christian
walk, inside you feel empty, sad,
overwhelmed and depressed; all of the sudden the Christianity you thought you
knew, the Christianity that brought you so much joy is far out of reach. You
feel like you are on some kind of automatic pilot. Even faking a smile is hard
for you. Then you are going through what Oswald called the discipline of
dismay. The discipline
of dismay lasts a little while. It
is a dark period of your life that your soul needs to go through if your
Christianity is to amount to anything to God.
Like Oswald
said, we tend to look back on our time of obedience and our past sacrifices to
God in an effort to keep our enthusiasm for him strong (see Isaiah 50:10-11)
One of the mistake we make is to try and find the enthusiasm back. We do not
realize that God is not looking for that enthusiasm, He in fact does not care
for it. He wants you to endure the inexplicable pain that you are in right now,
while seeking His face and focus on Him like there is no tomorrow.
What Oswald did
not know when he wrote that piece is that we are in a time where when the
enthusiasm for God is gone, the younger generation falls back on Social Media
to seek encouragement. So they find
comfort through those shallow comments these professed Christians have
perfected over the years, but with no real meaning to their lives. I noticed as
well the younger generation lack guidance and understanding coming from their
own family. If they had parents living deeper Christian lives with Him, parents
who have gone through the process with God, those younger people would have a
better understanding of what is going on and would stop in seeking for the type
of band-aid comfort they find on Social Media.
What we do not
realize, when God takes us through a time of dismay, it is indeed a good thing
for our soul and our walk with Him. While we are there, it does not seem it is
possible that any good can come of it because there is so much confusion just
trying to understand why we are where we are with Him. But, it is good because
God is taking you beyond a time where you can bypass the sense of
self-satisfaction you get from your Bible reading, prayer time, and Christian
activities. He is taking you deeper into Him. The sad thing is, until God takes
you there, you would never realize that you have been living a self-satisfying
kind of Christian life.
This phase is
mandatory, the waiting process, His silence, the fact that you do not recognize
Him and He is becoming more and more like a stranger to you. The protest that
you will go through, the soul searching, the lack of answers from Him, are all
part of the process. The attitude He is looking for is for you to surrender it
all to Him, for you to stop protesting, for you to trust those words you have
been reading in the Bible and trust that He is a faithful God. When you go
through it with the right attitude, you position yourself to receive more of
His grace.
It is a time of
great depression and no matter what you do, your soul cannot get out of it. Don’t
despair, and don’t panic. If you surrender through the process, I promise you,
He will take care of you in the same way He took care of Elijah when he was
running for his life and God sent an Angel to feed Him and care for him. He will take care of you in the same way He
took care of Paul who was so discouraged that nothing could revive his soul,
God had to send an angel on three occasions to reassure him and strengthen him.
So, if you are
going to a dark time with Him, I beg of you, stop seeking for temporary shallow
satisfaction. It is a time to hang on to Him more than ever. It is the perfect
time to test Hebrews 13:5 “I will never desert you nor forsake you.” Trust in the God of your Salvation. Look to
His Cross. It is hard to let go of all we know and to hang on to Him especially
at a time where we have no answer and He seems more absent than we have ever
experienced. But it is okay. It will feel as if you are asked to let go of
something that is holding you nicely and help you stand up, for something you
have no idea what it is, where it is, what it is made of. In fact within yourself,
you have no desire of letting go of something you can see for something you
cannot see. But, your soul needs to go through it all. Your soul needs to learn
to trust what it cannot see
That’s exactly
what He wants from you. Even though nothing makes sense to you, I beg of you to
trust Him and He will not fail you.
Here is Oswald Chambers's devotion for today
The Discipline of Dismay
At the beginning of our life with Jesus Christ, we were sure we knew all there was to know about following Him. It was a delight to forsake everything else and to throw ourselves before Him in a fearless statement of love. But now we are not quite so sure. Jesus is far ahead of us and is beginning to seem different and unfamiliar— “Jesus was going before them; and they were amazed” (Mark 10:32).
There is an aspect of Jesus that chills even a disciple’s heart to its depth and makes his entire spiritual life gasp for air. This unusual Person with His face set “like a flint” (Isaiah 50:7) is walking with great determination ahead of me, and He strikes terror right through me. He no longer seems to be my Counselor and Friend and has a point of view about which I know nothing. All I can do is stand and stare at Him in amazement. At first I was confident that I understood Him, but now I am not so sure. I begin to realize that there is a distance between Jesus and me and I can no longer be intimate with Him. I have no idea where He is going, and the goal has become strangely distant.
Jesus Christ had to understand fully every sin and sorrow that human beings could experience, and that is what makes Him seem unfamiliar. When we see this aspect of Him, we realize we really don’t know Him. We don’t recognize even one characteristic of His life, and we don’t know how to begin to follow Him. He is far ahead of us, a Leader who seems totally unfamiliar, and we have no friendship with Him.
The discipline of dismay is an essential lesson which a disciple must learn. The danger is that we tend to look back on our times of obedience and on our past sacrifices to God in an effort to keep our enthusiasm for Him strong (see Isaiah 1:10-11). But when the darkness of dismay comes, endure until it is over, because out of it will come the ability to follow Jesus truly, which brings inexpressibly wonderful joy
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