Do we really need God to show us the way throughout our
pilgrim’s journey on this earth?
The first few years God led me into the
wilderness I found I constantly needed guidance from Him. It was more so
between the second to the fifth year. My soul ached to find a way out of my
trials and the path I was on with Him. I hated the fact that my desire to be
out there and get involved in saving souls was thwarted. I felt useless, the
uncertainty of my life was painful, I felt anxious, and hated the fact that I lost
so much control of my life. While I was happy he was training me to become what
I am in Him now, but I felt I was missing the mark. So my favorite song for all
those years was “show me your way that I may walk with you” by the Hillsong. I found such passion
when I sang it. I found so much truth in it because it was me, I wanted to
follow Him but I felt He was not showing me His way. I was frustrated and needed Him
to show me His way. Then my intimacy with Him soared, while I still like the
song, I don’t care about it that much anymore. What I found strange was that my
situation did not change that much, the only thing that changed was me, on the
inside. Then, it bothered me that I still needed His leading but the song would
not do it for me anymore.
This is the beauty of the steadfast walk in
the Spirit. It is the beauty of living your life like His progeny. It is also
the beauty of spiritual maturity. It is strange to see how on the outside my
situation had not changed at all. I lost everything when He took me into the
wilderness, but, unlike Job in the Bible who got his life back, God has not
given anything back to me at all. Yet, I no longer need Him to show me the way.
You see when you keep growing in your intimacy with Him, like a child with his
bicycle training, you naturally move on to two wheels. When your identity is
grounded in Him, and you are living as His child, you no longer need Him to
show you His way. Not because you can live without His guidance. But because
you have become obedient through brokenness, heavenly minded, and learned to
walk moment by moment through dependence and trust, then, it does not matter
what the next step is anymore. Your sole focus is to remain in the light with
Him.
Now that I know and trust Him, I realize all
these years I was begging Him to show me the way, He was indeed showing me His
way. I was being led by Him. My life was exactly where He wanted it to be
according to His plans for me. At that
time, I did not like His plans for me. Now,
that is all I live for. I needed Him to show me His way because my plans for my
life did not coincide with His plans. I could not see it because I was so busy
wanting Him to bless my own plans. Once we become heavenly minded, all that
remain for us to focus on, is when we deviate so ever slightly through even the
tiniest sin in our heart. As I mentioned in my book, even the tiniest sin takes
us away from the light, it feels as if you are no longer attached to His divine
nature, and it also feels like you have caught off your own oxygen. As we
remain in the light with Him, you no longer are looking forward to do something
big for Him.
Finding Him, and finding your purpose in Him
also means doing daily those tedious, “Itsy Bitsy” things that He puts in your
path. As you do, while they look small in your eyes they all serve a purpose in
Heaven. When you are building a house each one of us has our own job. One
design the schematics, one lead the project one clean the construction site
etc. As I stopped looking for God to lead me in the big things and my own way,
I can see through His eyes, me being the one that sweeps the floor does not
make me less in His sight. As long as I embrace His plan, I do it all for His
glory, He is indeed glorified. And the guy who is smart enough to draw the
schematic does not glorify Him more than I do. I am not saying being a true
Christian is an easy life. In fact, it is not at all, NOT AT ALL. But, then
again, we are not above the Master. And how can I not find joy in doing the
most menial task He presents to me, when I know my contribution is so big in
His eyes?
PRAYER: Lord God, Heavenly King, you are the
God of the universe. You designed each one of us with a purpose in mind for
your own glory. Father please take away the stubbornness of our hearts and the
blindness that causing us to follow after our own desires. Please Lord, help us
find freedom in you as you complete the work you started in us. I love you, I
worship you and I give you thanks and praises for who you are and who you made
me to be. May the ascended Christ be glorified in all of us.
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