I am reading Isaiah book and I started thinking of how God
chose Isaiah in Chapter 6. There was a time where I got involved in everything
that I could in the Church because I wanted to serve, but I also knew that my
Church would never choose me to serve in many areas, for two reasons. 1) Was my divorce even though they never knew
me when I was married. The second reason was that I did not wear masks like almost
everyone.
But, when God started dealing with me, I went through a period
of time where He kept talking and teaching me in my dreams, all about service.
To make a long story short (can you believe I can keep it short? LOL) One day I
was praying vehemently and for some reasons I kind of felt asleep because my eyes
were so suddenly heavy. I have no idea to this day if that was a dream or not,
but I was aware that the Spirit took oil and put it on my lips. I have to say that I was always shy when it
comes to talking about God and what I knew. I did not mind evangelizing and had
no problem with unbelievers, but I never felt adequate to talk to
Christians. Anyway, when I went to one
of the Pastors and explained what has happened to me about the oil on my lips,
I was dismissed and the pastor said something like “only an elder could do that”
and he quoted James 5:14 which apparently is not for just sickness, but also the
significance is that anything that concerns oil, has to go through an elder and
that the right channel is important to God because God is a God of order. I was disappointed but, I moved on with God
because I knew what really happened to me was from God and man's understanding
or lack of it, could not derail me. This
Pastor’s answer to me, right there, is a good example as to why we as Christians need to have an attitude adjustment toward God so we can become more spiritual.
My point is, no man has ever commissioned me yet, I know that
God is using me the right way, instead of me running around like a chicken
without head, getting involved in everything in the Church. So, the lesson
here, make sure you pursue God instead of man. Once you reach the place where
the Cross of Christ has significance to your heart, you know that you were
truly lost and found by Him, seek for Him with all your heart and with all your
might and He promised that you will find Him (Jeremiah 29:13-14) It does not
matter where you are from, your skin color, your status in society and how much
you have failed Him in this life. Don’t be absorbed by what is out there and
how good you look and sound. Don’t allow yourself to be addicted by man’s
approval. Don’t seek for love in the wrong place. All these things are a temporary fix. Resolved
to know nothing about anyone, but Christ crucified.
It is in looking for Him with all that you are and focussing
on Him alone to mold you and make you, that you get to the point where you can
live this life in this world, He can use you to touch all those around you,
yet, you know like Christ, you are not of this world.
Don't fear rejection when you have a mighty God willing to
accept you just the way you are. Beloved, allow Him to customize your life, His
way.
I will go back to my Bible now.....
