This is a Blog for those interested in following hard after His heart. Those willing to strive to live a moment-by-moment life as we go through the transformation process with Him. It is not an easy life, but the Father expects each of us to become an offering for His pleasure. So, if this is you, then let’s journey together hand in hand. I am humbled that you have chosen to walk with me. Thanks!
Showing posts with label Gratitude. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Gratitude. Show all posts
10 July, 2014
Consider Jesus–In the Exercise of Praise
My soul! seek from God the spirit of thankfulness, and cultivate habitually the grace of praise. It is a soul-purifying and a God-glorifying grace. It keeps the heart in perpetual bloom, and converts the life into a daily psalm! Praise God for all--praise Him for the blessings--of His providence, for the barrel of meal and for the cruse of oil that have not failed, for the providence that brightens, for the sorrow that shades, for the mercy that smiles, and for the judgment that frowns--for God's love breathing through all. Thus shall you be learning to sing the 'new song,' and to unite in the never ending music of heaven, where–
18 April, 2014
Good Friday
I am not ashamed to tell
people that I have no rituals for lent. I do not give up anything to feel that
I am denying the self. Yet, since my wilderness time with God, the lent season has
become so dear to my heart, especially Good Friday. It always takes me right
back to two thousand years ago and I experience sadness, grief with a heart
full to the point of exploding with gratitude. It does not matter how much I
tell myself that I am not going to feel this way, it seems like I have no
control over what I experience this time of the year. So, I guess, in a strange
way, I have a ritual.
I pray that God would
bring us to a point where all of us would KNOW through our experiences with
Him, the depth of this love of His that never fails. May we learn to love Him in return and learn
total dependence on Him
I pray that we would all
hunger for Paul’s passion for the gospel, Abraham’s faith, Daniel’s passion for
intercession and David’s passion for God’s heart. May we walk in purity and holiness
From the Inner Life of
Ruth Bryan
1858
Good Friday.—Blessed Lord Jesus, I hail You in the
depths. I worship You in the shades of my sin and death, for there are You my
eternal life. You obtained the keys of hell and death at a costly price; even
by going into their very depths, and enduring all that justice, by them, would
have inflicted on Your Church. And now the keys are Your right, not merely as
Creator—but as Surety and Head; seeing You have paid the uttermost farthing,
and can claim the release for the once debtor. As Head You were crowned with
the curse in those emblematical thorns, and can now claim exemption for
everyone of Your members. Praised forever be Your Name, worthy Lamb. I would
forever be speaking and writing of You, from a feeling, sin-pardoned heart.
"Your presence
makes my paradise,
And where You are, is heaven."
And where You are, is heaven."
You make Good Friday every day. Good living and good dying, for You are my goodness, my fortress, and my
deliverer, my God, and the Rock of my salvation. Forever blessed be the once
crucified Redeemer. Oh, I would always live beneath Your shadow below, and
then, with open face, behold Your glories above. Jehovah be praised for Gethsemane and Calvary scenes. Oh, do fire my soul, and make me a
warm living witness of Your love "which passes knowledge." Do, Lord,
perfume me with Your fragrance, that I may be a sweet savor of You to Your
loved ones. Let us be "as one to make one living sound" in
praising You both by lip and life. I love these sacred hours alone, to get into
my sanctum and begin my heaven. My soul pants for more
revelation of You.
24 February, 2014
Gratitude And Awe
We know a time will come for us to look back with our Lord over the story of our lives. Every hidden thing shall be made known, every word spoken in secret shall be uttered. My soul shrinks back; how will this not be an utter horror? The whole idea of judgment has been terribly twisted by our enemy. One evangelistic tract conveys the popular idea that at some point shortly upon our arrival in heaven the lights will dim and God will give the signal for the videotape of our entire life to be played before the watching universe: every shameful act, every wicked thought. How can this be so? If there is "now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus" (Rom. 8:1), how is it possible there will be shame later? God himself shall clothe us in white garments (Rev. 3:5). Will our Lover then strip his beloved so that the universe may gawk at her? Never.
However God may choose to evaluate our lives, whatever memory of our past we shall have in heaven, we know this: It will only contribute to our joy. We will read our story by the light of redemption and see how God has used both the good and the bad, the sorrow and the gladness for our welfare and his glory. With the assurance of total forgiveness we will be free to know ourselves fully, walking again through the seasons of life to linger over the cherished moments and stand in awe at God's grace for the moments we have tried so hard to forget. Our gratitude and awe will swell into worship of a Lover so strong and kind as to make us fully his own.
Courtesy of Ransomed Heart
Courtesy of Ransomed Heart
12 February, 2014
I Live To Know You Lord Should Be our Motto as Christians!
Today I
was reading Deuteronomy 27-29, I found several verses such as:
Deut. 28:9
"The LORD will establish you as a holy people to Himself, as He swore
to you, if you keep the commandments of
the LORD your God and walk in His ways.” Here is what Matthew Henry has to
say about it.
Matthew Henry's Concise Commentary
“Deut.
28:1-14 - This chapter is a very large exposition of two words, the blessing
and the curse. They are real things and have real effects. The blessings are
here put before the curses. God is slow to anger, but swift to show mercy. It
is his delight to bless. It is better that we should be drawn to what is good
by a child-like hope of God's favour, than that we be frightened to it by a
slavish fear of his wrath. The blessing is promised, upon condition that they
diligently hearken to the voice of God. Let them keep up religion, the form and
power of it, in their families and nation, then the providence of God would
prosper all their outward concerns.”
Deut.
28:47 “If you do not serve the LORD your God with joy and enthusiasm for the
abundant benefits you have received,”
I like
this verse because it shows how God expects to be served and worshiped. But if
we have not learned to be grateful for who He is and what He has done for us
through Christ, we end up living the type of Christianity where we feel
obligated to fulfill our obligations to Him. So, while we are religious, we are
so resistant to changes that the Holy Spirit cannot make a dent in us. The real
love, the enthusiasm and the joy of it all will always be missing in our walk.
Deut.
28:63 “Just as the LORD has found great pleasure in causing you to prosper and
multiply, the LORD will find pleasure in destroying you. You will be torn from
the land you are about to enter and occupy.”
This
verse might sound off a bit to some, and we might even question God. But this
is who God is. His love and wrath has the
same intensity. So, yes He will find pleasure in destroying them. The pleasure
comes from the fact that He simply has no tolerance for wickedness and His Holiness
demands it. For us Christian our wickedness comes from the fact that we want to
butt heads with Him at any cost, because we have His promises and He cannot
lie.
This
kind of Christianity is drilled into us day in day out. Most Churches today,
along with social media, and everywhere on the internet we find joy in claiming
verses we like, that speak of His promises. In reality, these verses do not
stand by themselves as they are not complete. We learned to cultivate that
mentality where we think He owes us something and we can get away with murder. God has no tolerance for this kind of
self-serving Salvation. The hearts of the Israelites were not right with Him,
just as us today. When we insist on having our way instead of His, well, we
share in the same symptoms and diseases as the Israelites. Like God showed me,
there is a big difference between those who love Him and will be losing some rewards,
and those who do not love Him at all as if Salvation never touched their hearts.
Moses
example is one that shows Moses love for God, but his disobedience caused him
not to see the Promised Land. VS God, destroying the Israelites because of
their lack of love for Him, they could not follow at all. God does not expect us to be perfect until we
die because perfection belongs to Him. But, we have to learn to examine
ourselves, not through our eyes, but His.
ON ANOTHER NOTE….
I shared with you in yesterday’s post. God touched my heart
and I understand that I made it all sound so bad, as if God has not done
anything good for me while I am waiting on Him, upon Him and for Him. The
reality is that He showered blessings on me through my two sons. The past three
months have been incredible. Each news I received from them is earth shattering.
There has been a lot as if God has
opened a flow of blessings from heaven.
Last
week I was praying and asking God how long will I have to wait? I even told Him
whenever He tells me to do something, I do it, and then it is like He uses my
obedience to humble me in a way that things always turn sort of sour for me. In
His defense, I have to say, even though my life is truly rough and my soul
could use a break from this divine training, I still pray for Him to keep me
where I am. My relentless prayer goes along this line: “Teach me and train me
to be like Paul so that I, too, have no aim, no end and no purpose but you my
Lord.” Yes, it seems crazy that after such a long period of time I am still
spending long hours with God asking Him to make me this person.
I have
to be honest, there was a time I stopped praying this way because I realized
God was giving me the desires of my heart, in a painful way. After a few months
of not praying this kind of prayer, God
showed me how my heart was letting Him go slowly as my first love. The only
thing that had changed was the way I prayed on purpose I avoided this kind of
prayer. Because God has given me the
ability to touch His heart, I am able to feel His pain and joy, (only when He
wants to) which is both a blessing and a curse as far as I am concerned. I had
no choice but to stop the pain that I was causing Him and go back to praying
Him to keep me like Paul with no aim, no end and no purpose but Him. Since
then, I never deviated from the path.
So during
my prayer time last week while I was talking to God as if He had forgotten me
in the waiting process, I felt suddenly a flow of peace all over me. This awesome,
still, peaceful and comforting voice told me “it has to be this way for now my
child, but have you noticed that you are not forgotten because all the
blessings that should come to you is happening to your children?” I was
speechless for a moment. Then, I realized it is true; God has blessed my two
boys so much. Yet, even in the midst of all these news I had received, I saw
these things as “my children’s own lives” and did not associate them with me at
all.
Right
after that, I went to my laptop I found an email that my son sent to us his
parents and wife together to announce another major news in his life. I checked
the time to see when the email came in; it was less than a minute. I grabbed
the phone to call him. He told me he was about to call his wife when he saw my
number, needless to say he was surprised with the speed of my phone call. As I
talked to him all I could see was how everything my boy touches turns into
blessings in his life. It is unreal how God lined up people on his path to
accomplish His will in his life.
I did
not stay on the phone because I wanted him to call his wife and rejoice in the
news together. As I hung up the phone God confirmed in my heart how my son’s
life is about me and my walk with Him. Something inside of me could not take it
anymore and I wept from the depth of my soul for about half an hour. My tears
were tears of joy, couple with how real God is and how awesome my God is. If I
were to list all that has happened in my two boys lives, it would look like I
am bragging. Even today as I am writing this post today, I still cannot believe
someone like me would have ever had the blessings that I received through them.
My
point is, it is not all that bad while someone could look at my life and ask
where is my God, but I know He has not abandoned me. No matter how hard things
are for me, I would not have it any other way because it brings joy to my
Savior.
When
you read Deuteronomy 29: 24-29 I rejoice in the way He ends it. These verses
tell us what people will say about the Israelites. Notice while these people
will say those things in verses 24 28, they will not understand why God is
doing all that He is doing in the Israelites lives because they are not privy
to the whole story. So, in verse 29 He says: Deut.29:29
"The LORD our God has secrets known to no one. We are not accountable
for them, but we and our children are accountable forever for all that he has
revealed to us, so that we may obey all the terms of these instructions.”
09 February, 2014
Deuteronomy Salvation Gratitude and Love! 2/2
Deuteronomy 8:11
"But that is the time to be careful! Beware that in your plenty you do not forget the LORD your God and disobey his commands, regulations, and decrees that I am giving you today."
Deuteronomy 12:1
"These are the decrees and regulations you must be careful to obey when you live in the land that the LORD, the God of your ancestors, is giving you. You must obey them as long as you live."
Deuteronomy 12:8
"Your pattern of worship will change. Today all of you are doing as you please,"
When you digest
the contents of the book of Deuteronomy, you can vividly see why so many Christians
today are wrong. They find the true Christianity too hard and tedious and most
of us are not quite acquainted with the inner life. Like the Israelites, God is
taken for granted at every turn. In Deuteronomy 8:11 Moses told the
Israelites “be aware not to forget the Lord by not keeping His commandments,
His statutes and His ordinances.” We can clearly see as we read God’s word,
that by keeping them we have life. In the February 7th post, I
mentioned that the Christian life God taught me was a busy one because it takes
every ounce of one’s strength and every bit of who you are must abide. I want
to elaborate a bit further on it because it could be misconstrued. In
Deuteronomy like in today’s Christian life, God’s plan has not changed. He
always wanted for all those that are His to learn to keep His word to regulate
their lives. He wanted His word to be what they fed on, to sustain and guide
them. He wanted through it all, to become their God and their sanctifier. Anyone
who tries to walk in this manner will tell you that at the level of the mind,
this life is extremely busy because you cannot achieve this level of obedience
and intimacy with Him without making the effort, moment by moment to constantly
keep His business in the forefront of your mind.
The Israelites
missed out on God’s leading and they missed out on the activities of God’s transforming
power in their lives. This is usually what happens when we reject His
leadership while we get comfortable and take Him for granted. Most of the time
you will find in the absence of God’s transforming activities in one’s life,
there is a need to change our behaviour as we mimic the qualities and
attributes of a model Christian, all in the flesh with no spiritual values.
Years ago I
bought a water heater and put it on my fuel bill. But the interest rates were
so high; it was like borrowing money from the mafia. So the next month, I
decided to make a big payment that would cover at least half of the cost of the
water heater. I intended to pay it in full in the next three months instead of
two years as they laid it out for me. When I called customer service to have
them apply the payment toward the water heater, during the conversation the
lady at the end of the line told me, well by making this payment, you
completely altered the terms of this contract with us. In my mind I remember
thinking “so what?” But, even though I was a brand new Christian, I never
forgot her words because I knew God is a covenant God. God does not take it
kindly to have a bunch of pretenders in the Church. He does not take kindly to those
who are butting heads with Him and expect Him to pay up because He cannot lie.
Most of what I
see around me is people following their Pastors, their Priests and spouses and
God is no longer the head of most Churches or households. We have learned to
practice our religion while learning to behave well to get our hearts in a
place of conformity. Believe me, I wish what I am talking about was simply my
own opinion. But, it is not. Anyone with a sound spiritual mind can see this is
the situation in today’s Church. When
God opened my spiritual eyes, I found out, me too, I was following my pastor
instead of God and I was trying very hard to learn to conform even though I was
not good at it. When we fail to make God’s word the very thing we feed on,
meditate on it and live by it, and when we fail to let His word and activities
transform us we become easy prey. Someone can stand in front of the pulpit,
utter the grossest stupidities about God and we are so numb inside we can’t
differentiate between truth, lies or wrong beliefs.
In the end, all
He wants on a global scale is to lead us to become a people being changed from
glory to glory. He wants us to love, serve and obey Him in His way. He wants to
purify us, preserve us and renew us day by day as He uses us to influence those
around us. This was His goal thousands years ago with the Israelites and it is
still His goal today with us Christians. We serve a changeless God. Why do we
insist on living like sheep without a shepherd, is beyond me.
07 February, 2014
Deuteronomy, Salvation Gratitude and Love! 1/2
I come to love the
book of Deuteronomy because it is filled with God’s
guidance to keep up the
relationship we have with Him. It is also filled with God’s love and protection
for his own. In return He asks obedience that comes right from the heart. Not
just looking to play the part on the outside and to conform. But the motive
behind it all should be our love for Him and in Deuteronomy 6:24 Moses made it
clearer to them. I understand where God is coming from. I can also see why the
Christian life He taught me, is so busy and requires every ounce of one’s strength
and every bit of who you are, must abide. A closer look at the book of
Deuteronomy will show that before love for God can dominate our lives, we need
to acquire something of a monumental importance in our salvation, which is
GRATITUDE. Read Deuteronomy for yourself, and see how many times God emphasized
the importance of gratitude and the role it plays in this life He has in mind
for us. Look at how many times He repeated how they were freed from Egypt, how
well He cared for them in the wilderness and how not only they need to keep
what He has done for them alive in their hearts, but they need to drill them
down into their children so they too, could always be fearful and grateful.
This gratitude I mentioned
above, is acquired when first Salvation touches you on the inside, I am not
talking about the counterfeit Salvation we have today where we get people to
say the sinner’s prayer under duress or through manipulation. I am talking
about those who were touched by God and in their encounter with Him, they have
reached the point where they felt the need to say even in their hearts “God save
me” or “what do I need to do to be saved?” This encounter would have come in
very quietly or with a bang. Whichever way it comes in, your conscience is
pricked and all of the sudden you realize you are a sinner in need of a
saviour. This is the difference between man made Salvation and God’s. With God
in the process, even if we do not know what the next step is, but one thing for
sure, you know of your condition within.
The point I am
trying to make here is that gratitude and humility work together and both come
from God. We do not need to work hard to live a grateful and humble life before
God, because we can see our nothingness and how without Him we can do nothing. All we need to exercise this humility in
everything that we do is abiding in Christ. As we abide in Him, we make use of
Christ’s humility. It is a phenomenal thing to see how, over the years the humility
we possess on the inside is growing as we grow spiritually. Like the agape love
of God, it flows through you. It is like there is something within you that
keeps recalling those moments when we first found out we are nothing but
miserable sinners who deserve hell. Yet, God in His grace not only sent His son
to die for us, but you have something else to be grateful for, because somehow
you have been chosen amongst billions who will be going to hell and your eyes
were opened to your condition. I don’t know about you, but often times I try to
make sense of the fact that I have been called and chosen to see and recognize
that I am a sinner in need of Him, why me instead of someone else? When you can
see your salvation through His eyes, love simply bursts out of your heart like
a broken water main gushing out a river of water. Then, God takes over this
love and exchange it for His Agape Love. This is the result of Salvation, and
this is the life giver living out His life within us.
Now, some of you
might say, well, not all of us have to see our salvation this way and it is not
necessary. I am here to tell you that you either have a defective Salvation or
you have made use of the free will that God has provided for you and like the
Israelites you chose the wrong path. I urge you to examine your heart honestly
and openly before God. If you find out that you cannot bring yourself to even
examine your heart in the light of God, then that is one more reason to panic
because God’s Salvation in your heart will be enough to get you there and drive
you to your knees.
What is worse is
that some of you call yourself Christian for decades, you will read this and
feel like something is wrong with this picture, but will dismiss it all simply
because you do not have the courage to face yourself. There is a strong chance that the feeling you
are trying so hard to suppress is the shame of finding out that you have no
idea what this gratitude and humility are all about and the fear that you could
have been wrong all this time can actually cripple your heart. From all that
Moses told the Israelites in Deuteronomy, we can tell by the time we find the
Israelites in the book of Jeremiah, we can see how badly they have deteriorated
without being wiser. We find them clearly practicing religion but never truly
taking “GOD” within. They cut off and rejected GOD the life giver. They failed
to take God into their hearts and abide by faith in His love. Yet, they never
rejected His promises and felt they were entitled to them.
It is very easy for anyone of us and any group
of people to get so entrenched and build religious practices around certain
doctrines and beliefs, have these practices control our behaviour and regulate
our hearts. But, know this, there is a big difference between Salvation in the
soul changing you and me through grace, and working things from the outside so
that we can conform to our “religion.” In the latter, all we have found is
religion, NOT CHRIST. Like the Israelites, we too cut off and reject CHRIST the
life giver for a substitute. Examine yourself to see if you are in the faith
because in the end, God loves all that He has created no matter what, but not
all of us belong to Him.
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