Groping in the Dark

By James Smith, 1859

It is very unpleasant to be in the dark, especially if you are in a strange place. This was my lot a few nights ago. I knew what I wanted, and I knew where I wanted to get to — but it was so dark I could not find the right road. I groped and fumbled about. For a long time I had not felt my need of a light so much, nor realized its value as I did then. It was a considerable time before I found my way, and in doing so, I got several knocks, and became very chilly. To be alone in the dark is unpleasant, and a friendly voice under such circumstances is very cheering.

After I had gained my point, I began to think of darkness as representing ignorance, cruelty, and crime. What a solemn testimony is that of the prophet, "Darkness has covered the earth, and gross darkness the people." How affecting the prayer of the Psalmist, "Have respect unto the covenant, for the dark places of the earth are full of the habitations of cruelty." And how cheering the announcement of another, "The people who walked in darkness have seen a great light; those who dwell in the land of the shadow of death, upon them the light has shined." And what a lovely representation Jesus gives us of himself when ne says, "I am the light of the world; he who follows me shall not walk in darkness — but shall have the light of life." I wonder not that Solomon should say, "Truly the light is sweet, and a pleasant thing, it is for the eyes to behold the sun." What would the world be naturally without the sun? Just in such a condition would we be morally, and spiritually, without the truth, and without the Savior!

My soul was in the dark once. In total darkness. I knew not my sin, I saw not my danger. I wanted something which I had not. I had heard of the way in which it was to be obtained, and thought I could find it — but I groped about in the dark in vain. At length I was led to God's Word, and I found the truth of Solomon's testimony. "The commandment is a lamp, and the law is light." By that word, I obtained a correct view of myself, and clearly discovered my danger. By that word, I saw the way of escape by our Lord Jesus Christ, and was led into it by the Holy Spirit. There I enjoyed the light of life, the light of God's countenance, and the light of joy and peace. I escaped from danger, obtained salvation, and saw with tolerable clearness the path of the just, which shines more and more onto the perfect day.

Since then, God's Word has been my light, and God's Spirit has been my guide. Nor can I do without either of them, for I need both a light to shine on my path, and a guide to lead me in it; and if left without either, I would find myself as I did the other night — groping in the dark. What obligations I am under to the Word, the Spirit, and the Savior; the Word is the light, the Spirit is the guide, and the Savior is the object to which I am led.

What home is to the poor traveler who has missed his way, and become bruised and chilly by groping in the dark, that, and more, oh how much more — is the Lord Jesus to me! In him is my food, my warmth, my rest, my every comfort. Without him I am hungry, cold, weary, and destitute of all real joy. O my Savior, leave me not in the dark — but if you do, I shall grope after you, and however cold and weary, I shall find no rest, until I find you!

Reader, may I say to you, as Paul wrote to his friends, "You were once darkness — but are now light in the Lord!" Have you discovered the darkness you were in? Have you felt your need of supernatural light? Have you endeavored to grope your way out of the darkness? Have you come to the light, and found rest unto your soul? My groping in the dark the other night, ended in a warm room, a comfortable bed, and refreshing sleep; and my former wandering in the dark, ended at the feet of Jesus, in rest of soul, and a place in the church of God. Has this been your case?

Believer, as a child of light, walk in the light. Walk in the truth. Walk in the Spirit. Walk in love. Walk in holiness. Let your course be that marked out by God's Word — that into which the Holy Spirit leads — that which unites and attaches you to all the Lord's people — that in which holiness shines forth resplendent — that all may see an illustration of the prophet's prediction in you, "And a highway will be there; it will be called the Way of Holiness. The unclean will not journey on it; it will be for those who walk in that Way; wicked fools will not go about on it!" Isaiah 35:8

Walking in the Light

If we walk in the light as He is in the light . . . the blood of Jesus Christ His Son cleanses us from all sin —1 John 1:7

Up until the Holy Spirit stepped in to help me understand how I was to walk in the light, all I had was the model that I learned from my previous Church.  Like Oswald mentioned in March 16^th’s devotion “For many of us, walking in the light means walking according to the standards we have set up for another person. The deadliest attitude of the Pharisees that we exhibit today is not hypocrisy but that which comes from unconsciously living a lie” This is so powerful in so many ways that I do not even want to start unravelling it. Even those four tiny words “unconsciously living a lie” we do not have any idea how powerful and how they have merged in our Christian walk like leaven in the dough. In the meantime we are not even aware that the leaven of the Pharisees has found its way into our lives. So, unconsciously, we live this life where we cherish the lies as our truth and we stand on it so proudly, totally clueless.

I found it rather peculiar that to learn to live in the light of God that you have to first be able to withstand that light on you, in your actions and in your heart. This is not easy. When it comes to God, all of us like Adam and Eve, all we want is to hide away from Him. This is not even something the Holy Spirit can do for you. No, He cannot step in the light in your place. When you are summoned to walk into the light, the Holy Spirit can coach you up until it is time to step into the light. Because as you step into the light, you are dealing with God’s judgement of you, as you stand there you have the awareness of your nakedness before God, nothing is hidden and nowhere to hide. It is scary, paralyzing, and shameful to be so exposed before Him.  Imagine Adam and Eve only had one sin yet they needed to hide away from God’s eyes. Imagine now when you have a legion of sin within how hard it is to be in His presence.

Right before you step into His light you can completely see the difference between what you thought was the light you have been walking so far and God’s real light. It is amazing to see the contrast because our light compares  like murky water to God’s.  The big difference lies in the fact that we have a faulty understanding of the meaning of this doctrine. What we call walking in the light, is either made up of the light of our own conscience, our own understanding of the Scriptures and our own standards. 

 Walking in the light goes way deeper than saying “your word is a lamp unto my feet. To get the full picture of our walk in the light we have to understand, and know how is God in the light? What does it mean to Him? If you are used to your basic walk and you are satisfied with yourself, you might say to me that you do not see the need to go deeper and perhaps you might even go as far as believing that I am complicating your life. But, the truth is, His word is clear “If we are to walk in the Light as He is in the Light” We are called to be in the light like Him, His way, by His standards, His hatred for sin, His transparency, His love, His fellowship, His holiness, His need for purity, the need to be truly separated from evil and all that pertains to His standards alone and not ours.  In Him, there is no holding back, nothing hidden from the light, in Him there is no darkness and He delights in the truth.

God has a passionate hatred for sin and until we can see it and grasp it His way, until we can understand in unison with God, not just on the surface or through lip service but through who we have become in Him, we can see and taste and agree with His abhorrence for sin, then we are nowhere close to living in the light of God. Not only God is light and He is so radiant that darkness disappears wherever He is, but we ought to think about living in the light as a lifestyle. It is a lifestyle that goes beyond words, where you have no agenda of your own, nothing up your sleeves and you do not care if you actually can find loopholes in His Word, because you have taken up His agenda and you find delight in His desires for your life. It is a lifestyle where we basically find out that we are actually living out Romans 13:14 where we are clothed with Jesus-Christ our Lord. When you truly put on Christ, you find there is no room to gratify the desires of the flesh. The meaning of gratifying the desires of the flesh here simply refers to a sinful state where you are opposing the Holy Spirit.

I find that there is nothing like putting on and wrapping yourself in Christ to help you live out what Paul said in Philippians 1:21 “ for me to live is Christ and to die is gain”  As you put on Christ, and dancing in oneness and joy with Him, it makes you realize the depth of your limitations in the flesh. You have no idea what happen but somehow you sin. You ask yourself how did I get out of this precious fellowship? While you stand there with no answer, you feel like a child with dirty feet standing in the front door, you cannot come back in, unless you take your dirty shoes off and clean those feet. While you are standing there to be cleansed by His blood to merge in the fellowship again, you can see the contrast in your sinful state and God in His purest form. You don’t even need Him to tell you that you are dirty, you know it. This realization makes more real living in expectancy of the day you will not have to live separated from Him again and again because of sin. Oh! I wish all of us would long for that day.

Blessings to all of you! I am so grateful that my readership has catapulted in a way that I cannot explain. I am grateful to you all. Let's keep going forward toward Him, let's not look back because it is not worth it. Our God is all that we need. No matter what is going on in your life right now, in Him we are more than conquerors. He is real, he is love and He only wants what is good for us. Allow Him to get the work done in you.

To all my kindred brothers and sisters out there, I love you with His Agape love.

Take good care and love others even when you are not loved back and do not allow bitterness to touch your heart at all.