Exodus 32:9-10
Then the LORD said, "I
have seen how stubborn and rebellious these people are. Now leave me alone so
my fierce anger can blaze against them, and I will destroy them. Then I will
make you, Moses, into a great nation."
Moses recounted the
story in Deuteronomy 9:24-29 “You have been rebellious against the LORD ever
since I have known you. I lay prostrate before the
LORD those forty days and forty nights because the LORD had
said he would destroy you. I prayed to the LORD and said,
"O Sovereign LORD, do not destroy your people, your own
inheritance that you redeemed by your
great power and brought out of Egypt with a mighty hand. Remember your servants Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. Overlook the
stubbornness of this people, their wickedness and their sin. Otherwise,
the country from which you brought us will say, 'Because the
LORD was not able to take them into the land he had promised them, and because
he hated them, he brought them out to put them to death in
the desert.' But they are your people, your
inheritance that you brought out by your great power and
your outstretched arm."
As I read Deuteronomy
chapter 9 I fell in love with Moses heart and attitude toward God and prayed
that I never depart from what He taught me. Verses 24-29 touched my heart and even though
I know God has already dealt with this part of my heart in how I respond to Him
in my daily walk, I felt the need to pray to Him for my preservation. Here is why. In these verses, we have a great example of
what it means to use the deposit God makes in us to draw close in oneness and
intimacy. When we read about Moses in the Old Testament, we have to be
completely out to lunch not to see the meekness in this man’s heart, attitude and
actions. Even God acknowledged his meekness. On more than one occasion, God wanted to
destroy the Israelites and blotted their names out from under heaven. By the
same token, he offered Moses to make him a great and mighty nation. If Moses
had accepted God’s offer and promise, he would have been in his right to do so.
He would have been entitled to it because God made the offer and He could not
have taken it back if Moses answer was “yes”
In the end, those
chapters of Deuteronomy that I have been talking about in the past three posts,
teach us a lesson that all of us should aspire to. Moses’s attitude and
response to God in regard to His offer to make him a powerful nation shows what
it means to truly love God and be one with Him. When your heart has been
touched by God through His gracious and generous Salvation, and when you
understand through the Holy Spirit’s eyes what this walk with Him is all about,
you do not see God’s promises to make you something or give you something. You
are past that stage so much, it is almost like it has become the last thing on
your list. Of course, this comes with Spiritual growth and maturity in the
faith. You do not see the fact that He promised you a place in heaven. You do
not care about the privileges you are entitled to as the King’s heir. None of
these matters to you. All your heart could see is “His glory.” You could care
less about all that He can do for you. I keep repeating myself here for a good
reason. I want you to see it through your spiritual eyes and I want to pay
attention to it.
This kind of growth happens
only when we become so merged with Him, regardless how long we have been a Christian,
as we live in His Holiness and His righteousness, the self has been annihilated
so much, that you are watching yourself not being elated by His promises to give
you something especially IF IT IS AT HIS OWN EXPENSES. With the self being dealt
with, there is room only for Him to live His life within you so much so, that
your answer to Him is always according to what Christ would respond. Hence why,
Moses did not want this blessing in Exodus 32:10. I love the fact that there is
a paradox there. You would be wrong to think that Moses had the power to refuse
something like God promised to make him “a great nation" without
God’s grace at work in him.
When this kind of
things happens to you, it is like you are watching someone else doing things
within you because you know there is no way on earth you would not go for His
offer instead. When things like that happen, you know without a doubt that it
is not you who is living this life but Him in you. You are jealous for His
reputation and your answer to Him contains the same kind of motive, attitude
and love that you see in Moses answer in Deuteronomy 9:28. The funny thing is,
when you sort of sit down to think about what just happened there, you cannot
help asking yourself why is it there is something in you that is guarding God
so jealously that it feels as if you are completely forgetting that God can
take care of Himself. Yet, you cannot help it simply because you are living out
Galatians 2:20 in full fledge.
I am not saying that we should not enjoy God’s
promises. Oh No! That would be so wrong, I would not know how to describe it. I
personally truly enjoy God’s promises and I live with expectancy in my heart. But
what I am saying is that His promises are at the bottom of your list when your
heart gets hold of Him. When you get what Salvation means, according to His
plans, you actually find the next best things are a heart filled with gratitude
toward Him, a strengthen faith a need to obey and you are watching His Agape
love permeates your heart slowly. In
living out the real Christian life, in spirit, you will find out all these
things I mentioned above come way before you even think about what’s in it for
you.
This is why I keep
saying, if after decades of calling ourselves Christian and we know nothing
else about Him except holding on to His promises like a dog with a bone, then
we miss the point of Salvation completely. The Israelites already had this mentality and
it did not work for God at all. In the end, God did not fail the Israelites and
He did not fail in His promises to them. The truth is, they failed God! When we
fail to know God and walk with Him in the way He planned for us, Moses tells us
exactly in Deut 9:27, we are there because of our sin, our rebellious heart,
and wickedness. Ask yourself, when was the last time you examine your heart to
meet with God face to face and deal with your sinful and wicked heart? Most of us can’t. We do not even accept the
fact that we are wicked. We have no problem seeing it in unbelievers while we
act as if it is not for us. I noticed whenever I speak about my wicked heart; I
offend the people I am talking to. They have a need to correct me and usually
they are quick to blame the devil for me feeling this way or even acknowledge
that I have a wicked heart.
I could go on for days with what I see in Deuteronomy that we need
to apply in our lives today. But I will stop there. I pray that God would touch
your heart and that you would be moved to give Him the love and obedience that
is due to Him. I pray that you would learn to see that Christianity cannot be
compartmentalized, but it is a lifestyle lived out in Him and through Him!