This is a Blog for those interested in following hard after His heart. Those willing to strive to live a moment-by-moment life as we go through the transformation process with Him. It is not an easy life, but the Father expects each of us to become an offering for His pleasure. So, if this is you, then let’s journey together hand in hand. I am humbled that you have chosen to walk with me. Thanks!
Showing posts with label denying self. Show all posts
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17 June, 2013
Follow Me ─ How Do You Count The Cost? ─ Part Three
Most of us when we read in the Scriptures that we have to count the cost to follow Christ,
if we do not have any hindrances coming from families and friends because we
decide to follow Jesus, the idea of counting the cost seems a little bit futile
to us. In our mind, it remains something we read in the Bible. If you live in a
country where you don’t have freedom of speech or choices, you understand first
hand what it means to count the cost. You know right away that you might be
killed for choosing to follow Christ. I have worked with people who have been
totally banned from their families back home for having chosen Christianity,
simply because God opened their eyes to the truth.
To me, counting the cost was not a big deal either. A few years ago when God stirred up my heart
and I was upset at all that I found in the Bible concerning His demands to live
out true Christianity, I did not know it then, but that was His way of waking
me up to the reality of what true Christianity means to Him. He knew even
before I knew it, that I needed to learn what it means to count the cost and
make the decision whether I wanted what He was offering.
When I first surrendered all to Him I did it with all my heart, yet
the Holy Spirit told me that I did not surrender my soul. I could not
understand what He meant. I had that goofy look on my face and I was thinking
“but, I am so sincere, what else does He want from me?” Then He set out to show
me in the span of a few weeks, certain things that I needed to take into
consideration before I could make a proper decision to surrender all to Him. These
few weeks were so hard and even though I was experiencing Him, I was walking
around feeling so sad and I felt I was carrying the world on my shoulders. I
knew I had a decision to make but I simply could not say yes right away to Him
because this time around, I knew the cost.
I found out there is a whole process and principles in counting the
cost to follow Christ.
LOVE RELATIONSHIP: For instance, as you consider the
cost, you find that the first commandment is not some light doctrine that we
just file away with one of those things you hope to get right one day. It’s the
reality of the Christian life and it is a real commitment that demands your whole
life. There is a list of subtexts that you need to get acquainted with once the
Holy Spirit illuminates you to understand the high standards of God vis a vis
the first commandment. As you see and come to grips with His standards, it
seems like you are completely annihilated.
COMMITMENT: There is a commitment that you know there will be
consequences that your mind cannot even embrace yet, because it is about
withstanding one spiritual battle after another and you cannot help wondering “why
would I want that in my life?”
VOLUNTARY DEPENDENCE: that takes all your focus away from
you and redirected toward Him. There is no room for substitution coming from
your own mind anymore. It is as if God is going out of His way to somehow
discourage you. Everything He shows you does not say anything about the good
side of this relationship, except that you need to believe and accept the fact
that, Him alone can sustain you.
The list goes on as you consider His idea of faith relationship and
the cost that accompany faith through obedience and trust in Him. You know you
are going to deal with the unknown and all you can do is wait, follow and
trust. He wants some kind of integrity and this single-eye type of relationship
that you have no idea as a human being you can pull that off.
While all these things are hard to take in, and you just don’t want
to participate voluntarily in this kind of makeover party He is inviting you to.
Strangely, as you go through the process of sorting things out, He sustains
your heart to understand your only alternative is to say yes. He also helps you
understand that the whole thing is about reaching your full potential in Him,
which only Him knows the limit. In your mind, you know that you are embarking
in one twisted and unknown adventure and a tiny bit of you, are curious to see
where it leads. You are very well aware that it is an invitation to go forward
with Him and to get to know Him. You are also aware that saying yes to Him is
in itself a form of worship which causes you to be aware of the experience of
worship you know so far is kind of hollow and here is your chance to step up
and act upon this knowledge.
Through Him, I found the strength to say yes to Him and I know
there is no adventure on this earth that could ever match the ride that He
takes you on as you follow Him with full knowledge of what you signed on for. Perhaps
because I have considered the cost and I knew there was pain awaiting me,
although I did not know the extend of the pain that I was going to have to cope
with, but, having counted the cost, helped me to walk faithfully, even when the
pain was unbearable, I could not walk away and through His grace, I am still going strong.
16 June, 2013
Follow Me ─Why Do So Many Give Up? ─ Part two
"If anyone would come after Me, he must
deny himself and take up his cross daily
and follow Me." Luke 9:23
deny himself and take up his cross daily
and follow Me." Luke 9:23
A lot of us tend to look at this verse and conclude that it is
mainly about the missionaries in the field and about sharing the gospel. What’s wrong with our view of discipleship is
that we equate discipleship mostly with work. But, being a disciple simply
means you are a learner and you are learning from Him. We must learn
self-denial, waiting, patience, surrender, abide, complete obedience, humility
and endure trials, etc, all the while, we are to cultivate a contempt for the
world. There is no question that without the inward work done for us by the
indwelling Spirit, the workers get easily discouraged and often give up because
they are working out of their own self-interests and are unable to renew their
strength in Him.
So, as we focus on discipleship, if all we see is the outward
work that can be done FOR God then, there is a strong chance that we have not learned
to give up self interest yet. Because, as we learn to die to self, we learn to
also get to know ourselves and we have a better understanding of the Holy
Spirit’s challenge in making us His true disciples. The point is, Christ had so
much more in mind when He told us to come after Him or to become His disciple. If
we do not let the Holy Spirit influence the way we live out this life and it
make sense that we get stuck and discourage and quit the process.
Christ has given us so much to ponder in verse 23. First we are to
count the cost of our decision, second we are to learn to deny self, third we
are to take up the cross He put in front of us” (not our own man made idea of
what the cross should be) then we follow. Christ wanted to make sure those following
Him understand what He was offering. By saying they needed to take up the cross
and denied self, He was indeed saying, while at first this life might seems
exciting because of the miracles, the word that seemed out of this world, and
the power etc, but it would take more than mere curiosity or enthusiasm based
on our own self-interests, to truly follow after Him.
Let’s think about it for a moment, any true Christian has one goal
which is to follow Christ wherever He leads and where He is leading is none
other than His Kingdom of course. A true Christian knows you cannot take your
own navigation tools and decide you know a better way. God has never changed
and He still wants us to do things, His way and it is only in learning things
His ways that we can succeed. Most of the time, His way will not be the easiest
one. For instance we see Him taking the Israelites by the longest route. In
reality, He could have taken the Israelites by a different route and they would
have gotten in the Promised Land in a few days. But that was not His plan and
He had a good reason for it too. He needed them to learn to know Him and learn
the art of fighting.
What happened to
the Israelites in the wilderness? First their enthusiasm gave in, then, resentment
and disobedience set in. What was the result of it all? They were fascinated by
the life of Egypt . In the Bible, Egypt represents sin and the
world and even though they could not go back to Egypt in person, but God
could never have their minds and hearts. Right until the end, in Jeremiah's book
you can see the Israelites have never been able to give God their undivided
attention, and truly consecrated their hearts to Him.
Personally I found when you count the cost of Christianity; the
next step is the willingness to die to self. The biggest shock to my system was
when one day it dawned on me that Christianity was not like that social club I
thought it was. Then I thought to myself why is it this person told me at the
beginning that I have nothing to do and I belong to the group going to heaven? Why
is it the Bible shows there is much more to it? Even though I did not
understand what that much more meant I knew I was lied to and the person who
lied to me did not do it on purpose either. He simply never learned to count
the cost, or learned to die to self. Then
I began to study the Bible just so that I could see what were asked of me,
should I decide to follow. This is when I got upset and stopped making notes
from my findings. It felt as if God was dangling something unattainable in
front of me. I actually accused Him of being unjust. The only response I got
from Him was: “well, surrender to me” That too was a few months of agony to get
there.
Later on, I found out, He is the architect and He is the only one
who possesses the plan as to what the building is going to look like when it is
finished. As workers, all we can do is, to do as we are told and true Christian
workers take their leads from the Holy Spirit directly. When we have not
learned to count the cost and be led by the indwelling Spirit, we go
around saying that we are Christians, yet we have no idea why other people are
making our lives miserable with stuff like higher life, dying to self etc. That
is because we convinced ourselves the outward work and appearance are good
enough and we have no solid foundation.
As for denying the self,
books have been written about it but it is a life where you are aware that you
are dying slowly as Christ is taking over more and more. (He must increase, I
must decrease) My point here is to show you first off, the work that is
involved in following after Him is actually harder than being a missionary
overseas, or going abroad preaching the gospel. The real work is the inward
work we are called to let the indwelling Spirit do with us in order to get us
where Christ intended for us to be. The more we keep insisting on doing things
our way, we only set ourselves up for disappointment.
15 June, 2013
Help to Self-Denial
By thomas Watson, 1675
Be convinced of the incomparable excellency of Christ. He is the quintessence of goodness. He is compared to a head of gold—for riches, Song of Solomon 5:10; to the Rose of Sharon—for perfume, Song of Solomon 2:1; to a bright morning star—for beauty, Revelation 22:16. Jesus Christ is all that is good and lovely. He is all we can require for satisfaction, or that we can desire for salvation. He is fully commensurate to our needs. He has eye salve to anoint us, white raiment to cover us, and His blood to heal us. We shall never deny ourselves for Christ—until we see glory and a beauty in Him. Christ is all marrow and sweetness. He is better than life, estate, or heaven!
Endeavor after a vital principle of grace. Grace will do that which flesh and blood cannot do. A man may do that by skill—which he cannot do by strength. A burden of great weight may be lifted up by pulleys, which cannot be lifted up by strength of arm. Grace will teach one the art of self-denial, which cannot be done by strength of nature. In particular, labor for three graces.
Humility. A proud man admires himself; therefore he cannot deny himself. A humble man lays his mouth in the dust. He has lower thoughts of himself, than others can have of him. He renounces himself. He opens to God as the flower opens to the sun. He will have—what God will have for him. He will be—what God will have him be. He is like melting wax. God may set whatever stamp and impression He will, upon him. The humble man is the self-denier.
Love. Who will not deny himself for a friend whom he loves? He will part with anything he has. He will gratify him who he loves, though it is to his own loss. He whose heart is fired with love for Christ—will stop at nothing for His sake. Gregory Nazianzen said of his Athenian learning, that he was glad he had anything of worth, to esteem as nothing, for Christ. Love for God will devour self-love.
Faith. Abraham was a great self-denier. He left his kindred and country and was willing to travel to any place where God would have him. Whence was this? It was from his faith. Hebrews 11:8, "By faith Abraham obeyed and went out, not knowing where he went." He who believes that Christ and heaven are his—what will he not relinquish for Christ's sake? The stronger a Christian's faith is, the more eminent will his self-denial be.
Pray much for self-denial. Prayer sets God to work, Psalm 10:17. Let this be your grand request—a self-denying frame of heart. Self-denial does not grow in nature's soil. It is a fruit of the Spirit. Beg God that He will plant this heavenly flower in your soul. Say, "Lord, whatever You deny me, do not deny me self-denial. Let me rather lack great abilities, nay, let me lack the comforts of the Spirit—rather than self-denial."
There may be going to heaven without comfort—but there is no going there without self-denial.
14 June, 2013
Self-Denial
By Richard Baxter
"If anyone would come after Me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow Me." Luke 9:23
You hear ministers tell you of the odiousness and danger and sad effects of sin; but of all the sins that you ever heard of, there is scarce any more odious and dangerous than selfishness; and yet most are never troubled at it, nor sensible of its malignity. My principal request therefore to you is, that as ever you would prove Christians indeed, and be saved from sin and the damnation which follows it—take heed of this deadly sin of selfishness, and be sure you are possessed with true self-denial; and if you have, see that you use and live upon it.
And for your help herein, I shall tell you how your self-denial must be tried. I shall only tell you in a few words, how the least measure of true self-denial may be known: wherever the interest of carnal self is stronger and more predominant habitually than the interest of God, of Christ, of everlasting life, there is no true self-denial or saving grace; but where God's interest is strongest, there self-denial is sincere. If you further ask me how this may be known, briefly thus:
What is it that you live for? What is that good which your mind is principally set to obtain? And what is that end which you principally design and endeavor to obtain, and which you set your heart on, and lay out your hopes upon? Is it the pleasing and glorifying of God, and the everlasting fruition of Him? Or is it the pleasing of your fleshly mind in the fruition of any inferior thing? Know this, and you may know whether self or God has the greatest interest in you. For that is your God which you love most, and please best, and would do most for.
Which do you most prize—the means of your salvation and of the glory of God, or the means of providing for self and flesh? Do you more prize Christ and holiness, which are the way to God—or riches, honor, and pleasures, which gratify the flesh? Know this, and you may know whether you have true self-denial.
If you are truly self-denying, you are ordinarily ruled by God, and His Word and Spirit, and not by the carnal self. Which is the rule and master of your lives? Whose word and will is it ordinarily that prevails? When God draws, and self draws—which do you follow in the tenor of your life? Know this, and you may know whether you have true self-denial.
If you have true self-denial, the drift of your lives is carried on in a successful opposition to your carnal self, so that you not only refuse to be ruled by it, and love it as your god—but you fight against it, and tread it down as your enemy. So that you go armed against self in the course of your lives, and are striving against self in every duty. And as others think—it then goes best with them, when self is highest and pleased best; so you will know that then it goes best with you—when self is lowest, and most effectually subdued.
If you have true self-denial, there is nothing in this world so dear to you, but on deliberation you would leave it for God. He who has anything which he loves so well that he cannot spare it for God, is a selfish and unsanctified wretch. And therefore God has still put men to it, in the trial of their sincerity, to part with that which was dearest to the flesh. Abraham must be tried by parting with his only son. And Christ makes it His standing rule, "Any of you who does not give up everything he has, cannot be my disciple" (Luke
Yet it is true that flesh and blood may make much resistance in a gracious heart; and many a striving thought there may be, before with Abraham we part with a son, or before we can part with wealth or life; but yet on deliberation, self-denial will prevail. There is nothing so dear to a gracious soul, which he cannot spare at the will of God, and the hope of everlasting life. If with Peter we would flinch in a temptation—we should return with Peter in weeping bitterly, and give Christ those lives that in a temptation we denied Him.
In a word, true self-denial is procured by the knowledge and love of God, advancing Him in the soul—to debasing of self. The illuminated soul is so much taken with the glory and goodness of the Lord, that it carries him out of himself to God, and as it were estranges him from himself, that he may have communion with God. This makes him vile in his own eyes, and to abhor himself in dust and ashes. It is not a stoical resolution, but the love of God and the hopes of glory—which make him throw away the world, and look contemptuously on all below, so far as they are mere provision for flesh.
Search now, and try your hearts by these evidences, whether you are possessed of this necessary grace of self-denial. O make not light of the matter! For I must tell you that self is the most treacherous enemy, and the most insinuating deceiver in the world! It will be within you when you are not aware of it and will conquer you when you perceive not yourselves much troubled with it. Of all other vices, selfishness is both the hardest to find out and the hardest to cure. Be sure therefore in the first place, that you have self-denial; and then be sure you use it and live in the practice of it
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