These reminiscences
are alluded to in the prologue of the Holy
War:—
'When Man soul trampled upon things Divine,
And wallowed in filth as doth a swine,
Then I was there, and did rejoice to see
Diabolus and Man soul so agree.'
The Laureate had read
this, and yet considers it the language of a heart that 'never was hardened.'
He says that 'the wickedness of the tinker has been greatly overcharged, and it
is taking the language of self-accusation too literally to pronounce of John
Bunyan, that he was at any time depraved. The worst of what he was in his worst
days is to be expressed in a single word, the full meaning of which no
circumlocution can convey; and which, though it may hardly be deemed
presentable in serious composition, I shall use, as Bunyan himself (no
mealy-mouthed writer) would have used it, had it in his days borne the same
acceptation in which it is now universally understood;—in that word then, he
had been a blackguard.
The
very head and front of his offending
Hath this extent—no more.'
The meaning of the epithet is admirably explained; but what could Dr. Southey imagine possible to render such a character viler in the sight of God, or a greater pest to society? Is there any vicious propensity, the gratification of which is not included in that character? Bunyan's estimate of his immorality and profaneness prior to his conversion was not made by comparing himself with the infinitely Holy One, but he measured his conduct by that of his more moral neighbors. In his Jerusalem Sinner Saved, he pleads with great sinners, the outwardly and violently profane and vicious, that if HE had received mercy, and had become regenerated, they surely ought not to despair, but to seek earnestly for the same grace. He thus describes himself:—' I speak by experience; I was one of those great sin-breeders; I infected all the youth of the town where I was born; the neighbors counted me so, my practice proved me so: wherefore, Christ Jesus took me first; and, taking me first, the contagion was much allayed all the town over.
When God made me sigh, they would hearken, and inquiringly say,
What's the matter with John? When I went out to seek the bread of life, some of
them would follow, and the rest be put into a muse at home. Some of them,
perceiving that God had mercy upon me, came crying to him for mercy too.' Can
anyone, in the face of such language, doubt that he was most eminently a
brand snatched from the fire'; a pitchy burning brand, known and seen as such
by all who witnessed his conduct? He pointedly exemplified the character set
forth by James, 'the tongue is a fire, a world of iniquity, set on fire of
hell' (James 3:6). This was as publicly known before his conversion, as the
effects of the wondrous change were openly seen in his Christian career
afterward. He who, when convinced of sin, strained his eyes to see the distant
shining light over the wicket-gate, after he had gazed upon
—'The
wondrous cross
On which the Prince of glory died,'
became a luminous
beacon, to attract the vilest characters to seek the newness of life; and if there
be hope for them, no one ought to despair. Far be it from us to cloud this
light, or to tarnish so conspicuous an example. Like a Magdalene or a thief on
the cross, his case may be exhibited to encourage hope in every returning
prodigal. During this period of his childhood, while striving to harden his
heart against God, many were the glimmerings of light which from time to time
directed his unwilling eyes to a dread eternity. In the still hours of the
night 'in a dream God opened' his ears—the dreadful vision was that 'devils and
wicked spirits labored to draw me away with them.' These thoughts must have
left a deep and alarming impression upon his mind; for he adds, 'of which I
could never be rid.'
The author of his life, published in 1692, who was one of his personal friends, gives the following account of Bunyan's profligacy, and his checks of conscience:—' He himself hath often, since his conversion, confessed with horror, that when he was but a child or stripling, he had but few equals for lying, swearing, and blaspheming God's holy name—living without God in the world; the thoughts of which, when he, by the light of Divine grace, came to understand his dangerous condition, drew many showers of tears from his sorrowful eyes, and sighs from his groaning heart. The first thing that sensibly touched him in this unregenerate state were fearful dreams, and visions of the night, which often made him cry out in his sleep, and alarm the house as if somebody was about to murder him, and being waked, he would start, and stare about him with such a wildness, as if some real apparition had yet remained; and generally, those dreams were about evil spirits, in monstrous shapes and forms, that presented themselves to him in threatening postures as if they would have taken him away, or torn him in pieces.
At some times they seemed to belch flame, at other times a continuous smoke, with horrible noises and roaring. Once he dreamed he saw the face of the heavens, as it were, all on fire; the firmament crackling and shivering with the noise of mighty thunders, and an archangel flew in the midst of heaven, sounding a trumpet, and a glorious throne was seated in the east, whereon sat one in brightness, like the morning star, upon which he, thinking it was the end of the world, fell upon his knees, and, with uplifted hands towards heaven, cried, O Lord God, have mercy upon me! What shall I do, the day of judgment has come, and I am not prepared! When immediately he heard a voice behind him, exceeding loud, saying, Repent.
