Though He Tarry Wait For Him (Whatever the reason He puts you on a waiting mode, however long He decided)
When I was not a good Christian (I had Christ in my
intellect, but not my heart) I used to talk about Abraham in a way that I can now see as being self-righteous,
and I could not understand how he made a mess of things by having Ishmael. Now that I have been waiting for God for
almost a decade, I understand his dilemma. Through the waiting process, even though you
might be doing everything right in the way that you are waiting for Him, but I
find that at one point, the promise is almost like a blur. If you do not watch
yourself, you will actually take matters into your hands, not because you set
out to disobey. Through the waiting
process your soul is completed worn out and it spills out through the exterior
life. It is so bad that you want to do something drastic to get out of the funk
that you are in.
But, I also understand why God will judge us more harshly if
we do not wait. (1) Like Paul said in Romans 15:4 ‘ For everything that was written in the past was written to
teach us’, then we must learn from them and think of the detrimental
consequences of not waiting. If there are
no detrimental consequences, then, God would not be God. (2) I find that even
though the promise is so distant and you are having a hard time holding onto
the reality of it, but, when you try to put words into God’s mouth which ultimately
changes things around and lead you to sin against Him. Through all the noise
and the confusion, you can still hear the still small voice of the Holy Spirit
asking you to guard your heart, right this minute. I find when this happens,
the best thing for me to do is to not even try to decipher what is real and
what is not. Strangely, as you decide to
give in to the Spirit’s warning, you find rest and strength for the moment.
When I compare myself to
Abraham, I know he was hundreds time a better man because he was like a Guinea
pig and had nothing to fall back on. I am sealed with the Spirit of God and I
have materials available to me that I would never be able to go through in my
lifetime. So, when I look at the problem
this way, I cannot help asking myself, what’s my excuse not to wait?
Thanks for allowing me to
rant, it has been very therapeutic…
