A Word of Counsel, Showing From What We May Not, as Also From What We May, Judge
our Graces to Be Declining
First. A
word of counsel to direct the Christian how to judge of the declining state of
grace, that he may not pass a false judgment upon himself therein.
How
may a Christian judge whether grace be declining in him or no? First. I
shall resolve this negatively, and show by what he is not to judge his grace
to decline. Second. I shall resolve it positively, and show
by what he may certainly conclude a decay of grace.
First. I shall resolve this negatively, and
show by what he is not to judge his grace to decline, and that
in several particulars.
1.
Christian, do not judge grace to be fallen weaker, because thy sense of
corruption is grown stronger. This oft lies at the bottom of poor
souls’ complaints in this case. O they never felt pride, hypocrisy,
and other corruptions, so haunt them as now. None knows how they
are vexed with these and the like, besides themselves. Now let me
ask thee who makest this sad moan, whether thou dost not think these
corruptions were in thee before thou didst thus feel them? how oft hast thou
prayed as formally, and not been troubled? how oft hast thou stood chatting
with the same lusts, and thy soul hath not been laid low before the Lord with
such abasement of thyself as now? Deal faithfully between God and
thy soul, and tell not a lie for God by bearing false witness against
thyself. If it be thus, thou hast rather a comfortable sign of grace
growing than decaying. Sin cannot be on the getting hand, if the
sense of sin grow quick; this is the concomitant of a thriving soul. None [are]
so full of complaints of their own hearts as such; the least sin goes now to their
very souls, which makes them think viler of themselves than
ever. But it is not the increase of sin in them, but the advance of
their love to Christ, makes them judge so. When the sun shines with some power,
and the year gets up, we observe, though we may have frosts and snow, yet they
do not lie long, but are soon dissolved by the sun. O it is a sweet
sign that the love of Christ shines with [such] a force upon thy soul, that no
corruptions can lie long in thy bosom, but they melt into sorrow and bitter
complaints. That is the decaying soul, where sin lies bound up and
frozen, [where] little sense of or sorrow for it appears.
2.
Take heed thou thinkest not grace decays, because thy comfort
withdraws. The influence of the sun comes where the light of it is not
to be found, yea, is mighty, as appears in those mines of gold and silver,
which are concocted by the same. And so may the actings of grace be
vigorous in thee, when least under the shines of his
countenance. Did ever faith triumph more than in our Saviour,
crying, ‘My God, my God?’ here faith was at its meridian, when it was midnight
in respect of joy. Possibly thou comest from an ordinance, and
bringest not home with thee those sheaves of comfort thou usest to do, and
therefore concludest grace acted not in thee as formerly. Truly if
thou hast nothing else to go by, thou mayest wrong the grace of God in thee
exceedingly. Because thy comfort is extrinsical to thy duty—a boon
which God may give or not, yea, doth give to the weak, and deny to the strong. The
traveller may go as fast, and ride as much ground when the sun doth not shine,
as when it doth—though indeed he goes not so merrily on his journey—nay,
sometimes he makes the more haste. The warm sun makes him sometimes
to lie down and loiter, but when dark and cold, he puts on with more
speed. Some graces thrive best, like some flowers, in the shade,
such as humility, dependence on God, &c.
3.
Take heed thou dost not mistake, and think thy grace decays, when may be it is
only thy temptations increase, and not thy grace that decreases. If
you should hear a man say, because he cannot to-day run so fast, when a hundred
weight is on his back, as he could yesterday without any such a burden, that
therefore he was grown weaker, you would soon tell him where his mistake
lies. Temptation lies not in the same heaviness alway upon the
Christian’s shoulder. Observe, therefore, whether Satan is not more
than ordinary let loose to assault thee—whether thy temptations come not with
more force and violence than ever. Possibly, though thou
dost not with the same facility overcome these, as thou hast done less, yet
grace may act stronger in conflicting with the greater, than in overcoming the
less. The same ship, that when lightly ballasted, and favoured with
the wind, goes mounting, at another time deeply laden and going against wind
and tide, may move with a slow pace, and yet they in the ship take more pains
to make it sail thus, than they did when it went faster.
Second. I shall resolve it positively, and
show by what he may certainly conclude that grace is declining; and
that in a threefold respect. 1. In reference to temptations to
sin. 2. In reference to the duties of God’s worship. 3.
The frame of thy heart in worldly employments.
1. In
reference to temptations to sin, and that is threefold.
(1.)
When thou art not so wakeful to discover the encroachings of sin upon thee as
formerly. At one time we find David’s heart smote him when he but
rent the skirt of Saul’s garment; at another time, when his eye glanced on
Bathsheba, he takes no such notice of the snare Satan had him in, and so is led
from one sin to another, which plainly showed that grace in him was heavy-eyed,
and his heart not in so holy a frame as it had been. If an enemy comes
up to the gates, and the sentinel [does] not so much as give an alarm to the
city of his approach, it shows he is off his guard, either fallen asleep or
worse. If grace were awake, and thy conscience had not contracted
some hardness, it would do its office.
(2.)
When a temptation to sin is discovered, and thou findest thy heart shut up that
thou dost not pray against it, or not with that zeal and holy
indignation, as formerly upon such occasions, it is a bad sign, that lust hath
got an advantage of thy grace, that thou canst not readily betake thyself to
thy arms. Thy affections are bribed, and this makes thee so cold a
suitor at the throne of grace for help against thine enemy.
(3.)
When the arguments prevailing most with thee to resist temptations to sin, or to
mourn for sins committed, are more carnal and less evangelical than
formerly. May be thou rememberest when thy love to Christ would have
spit fire on the face of Satan tempting thee to such a sin, but now that holy
fire is so abated that if there were not some other carnal motives to make the
vote full, it would hazard to be carried for it, rather than against
it. And so in mourning for a sin, there is possibly now some slavish
arguments, like an onion in the eye, which makes thee weep, rather than pure
ingenuity arising from love to God whom thou hast offended; this speaks a sad
decay, and the more mixture there is of such carnal arguments, either in the
resisting of, or mourning for sin, the greater the declination of grace
is. David’s natural heat sure was much decayed, when he needed so
many clothes to be laid on him, and yet he felt so little heat; the time was he
would have sweat with fewer. I am afraid, many their love to Christ
will be found, in these declining times, to have lost so much of its youthful
vigor, that what would formerly have put them into a holy fury and burning zeal
against some sins, such as Sabbath-breaking, pride of apparel, neglect of
family duties, &c., hath now much ado to keep any heat at all in them
against the same.
2.
In reference to the duties of God's worship.
(1.)
If thy heart doth not prompt thee with that forwardness and readiness as
formerly to hold communion with God in any duty. Possibly thou
knowest the time when thy heart echoed back to the motions of God's spirit
bidding thee seek his face: ‘Thy face, Lord, will I seek;’ yea, thou didst long
as much till a Sabbath, or a sermon-season came, as the carnal wretch doth till
it be gone; but now thy pulse doth not beat so quick a march to the ordinances
public or secret. Nature cannot but decay if appetite to food go
away. A craving soul is the thriving soul; such a child that will
not let his mother rest, but is frequently crying for the breast.
(2.)
When thou declinest in thy care to perform duties in spiritual sort, and to
preserve the sense of those more inward failings, which in duty none but
thyself can check thee of. It is not frequency of duty, but
spirituality in duty, [that] causeth thriving, and therefore neglect in this
point soon brings grace into a consumptive posture. Possibly, soul,
the time was thou wert not satisfied with praying, but thou didst watch thy
heart strictly; as a man would every piece in a sum of money he pays, lest he
should wrong his friend with any brass or uncurrent coin—thou wouldst have God
not only have duty, but duty stamped with that faith which makes it current,
have that zeal and sincerity which makes it gospel-weight; but now thou art
more careless and formal. O look to it, poor soul, thou wilt, if
thou continue thus careless, melt in thy spiritual state
apace. Such dealings will spoil thy trade with
heaven. God will not take off these slightly duties at thy hands.
(3.)
When a Christian gets little spiritual nourishment from communion with God, to
what it hath done. The time had been, may be, thou couldst show what
came of thy praying, hearing, and fasting, but now the case is
altered. There is a double strength [which] communion with God
imparts to a soul in a healthful disposition—strength to faith, and strength
for our obedient walking. Dost thou hear and pray, and get no more
strength to hold by a promise, no more power over, or brokenness of heart
under, thy usual corruptions? What! come down the mount, and break
the tables of God’s law, as soon as thou art off the place! as deep in thy
passion, as uneven in thy course as before! There is a sure decay of
that inward heat, which should and would, if in its right temper, suck some
nourishment from these.
3.
The frame of thy heart in worldly employments.
(1.)
When thy worldly occasions do not leave thee in so free and spiritual a
disposition, to return to the presence of God as formerly. May be
thou couldst have come from thy shop and family employments to thy closet, and
find they have kept thee in frame, yea, may be delivered thee up in a better
frame for those duties; but now it is otherwise, thou canst not so shake them
off but they cleave to thy spirit, and give an earthly savour to thy praying
and hearing. Thou hast reason to bewail it; when nature decays, men
go more stooping; and it is a sign some such decay is in thee, that thou canst
not, as thou usest, lift up thy heart from earthly to spiritual duties. They
were intended as helps against temptation, and therefore when they prove snares
to us there is a distemper on us. If we wax worse after sleep, the
body is not right, because the nature of sleep is to refresh; if exercise
indisposeth for work, the reason is our bodies. So here.
(2.)
When thy diligence in thy particular calling is more selfish. Possibly
thou hast wrought in thy shop, and set close at thy study, in obedience to the
command chiefly. Thy carnal interests have swayed but little with
thee, but now thou tradest more for thyself, and less for God. O
have a care of this.
(3.)
When thou canst not bear the disappointment of thy carnal ends in thy
particular calling, as thou hast done. Thou workest and gettest
little of the world, thou preachest and art not much esteemed, and thou
knowest not well how to brook these. The time was thou couldst
retire thyself into God, and make up all thou didst want elsewhere in him; but
now thou art not so well satisfied with thy estate, rank, and
condition. Thy heart is fingering for more of these than God allows
thee, this shows declining. Children are harder to be pleased, and
old men—whose decay of nature makes them more froward, and in a manner children
a second time —than others. Labour therefore to recover thy decaying
grace, and as this lock grows, so thy strength with it will, to acquiesce in
the disposure of God’s providence.