II. Now I am
taking my leave of these people I would apply myself to such among them as I
leave in a Christless, graceless condition; and would call on such seriously to
consider of that solemn day when they and I must meet before the Judge of the
world.
My parting
with you is in some respects in a peculiar manner a melancholy parting;
inasmuch as I leave you in most melancholy circumstances; because I leave you
in the gall of bitterness and bond of iniquity, having the wrath of God abiding
on you, and remaining under condemnation to everlasting misery and destruction.
Seeing I must leave you, it would have been a comfortable and happy
circumstance of our parting if I had left you in Christ, safe and blessed in
that sure refuge and glorious rest of the saints. But it is otherwise. I leave
you far off, aliens and strangers, wretched subjects and captives of sin and
Satan and prisoners of vindictive justice; without Christ and without God in
the world.
Your consciences bear me
witness, that while I had the opportunity, I have not ceased to warn you and set
before you your danger. I have studied to represent the misery and necessity of
your circumstances in the most transparent manner possible. I have tried all ways that
I could think of tending to awaken your consciences and make you
sensible of the necessity of your improving your time, and being speedy in
flying from the wrath to come and thorough in the use of means for your escape
and safety. I have diligently endeavored to find out and use the most powerful
motives to persuade you to take care for your own welfare and salvation. I have
not only endeavored to awaken you, that you might be moved with fear, but I
have used my utmost endeavors to win you: I have sought out acceptable words,
that if possible I might prevail upon you to forsake sin, and turn to God, and
accept of Christ as your Saviour and Lord.
I have spent my strength very much
on these things. But yet, with regard to you whom I am now speaking to, I have
not been successful: but have this day reason to complain in those words, Jer.
vi. 29: “The bellows are burnt, the lead is consumed of the fire; the founder
melted in vain: for the wicked are not plucked away.” ’Tis to be feared that
all my labors, as too many of you, have served no other purpose but to harden
you; and that the word which I have preached, instead of being a savor of life
unto life, has been a savor of death unto death. Though I shall not have any
account to give for the future of such as have openly and resolutely renounced
my ministry, as of a betrustment committed to me: yet remember you must give
account for yourselves of your care of your own souls, and your improvement of
all means past and future, through your whole lives.
God only knows what will
become of your poor, perishing souls, what means you may hereafter enjoy, or
what disadvantages and temptations you may be under. May God in his mercy grant
that, however, all past means have been unsuccessful, you may have future means
which may have a new effect; and that the word of God, as it shall be hereafter
dispensed to you, may prove as the fire and the hammer that breaketh the rock
in pieces. However, let me now at parting exhort and beseech you not wholly to
forget the warnings you have had while under my ministry. When you and
I shall meet at the day of judgment, then you will remember ’em: the sight of
me, your former minister, on that occasion, will soon revive ’em in your
memory; and that in a very affecting manner. O don’t let that be the first time
that they are so revived.
You and I are now parting one
from another as to this world; let us labor that we may not be parted after our
meeting at the last day. If I have been your faithful pastor (which will that day
appear, whether I have or no), then I shall be acquitted and shall ascend with
Christ. O do your part, that in such a case it may not be so, that you should
be forced eternally to part from me and all that have been faithful in Christ
Jesus. This is a sorrowful parting that now is between you and me, but that
would be a more sorrowful parting to you than this. This you may perhaps bear
without being much affected by it, if you are not glad of it; but such a
parting in that day will most deeply, sensibly, and dreadfully affect you.